Where Do You Put Your Energy?

I have been listening to a Caroline Myss workshop and today she spoke about energy and power.  She believes that every morning we wake up fully infused with energy and power and that as we move through our day, we intermittently give our energy/power away.  Exhausted most of the time and interested in staying up later than my 9 year old, I asked the questions Caroline noted as relevant. 

Where do I give away my energy and power?  

Do I put my energy/power in the past or in the future?  Ah, yes.  I routinely think about the past and my non-jiggly, P90X arms from 5 years ago; I then beat myself up for how so very very very far I have fallen.  I also worry about my son’s future.  Did I melt his brain by putting on Baby Einstein videos when I showered or am I giving him “only child syndrome” by not having another child?  Do I put energy in the past or future?  Yep, check. 

Do I put my energy/power in people?  Again, yep.  Recently I was not invited to a friend’s dinner party; I was hurt and spent several days obsessing over how I could have been a better friend.  I also give away a lot of my power to my parents.  A critical comment about my parenting or my weight can send me wanting to crawl into bed and stay there for weeks.  Do I give my power away to people?  That’s a most definitely. 

Do I put my energy/power into things?  Again, yes yes yes.  Often I allow my scale or how tight my jeans are to determine whether my day will be good or bad.  Money is always an emotionally charged topic and recently, when my computer suddenly died, I threw a fit that would make a 2 year old proud.  Do I put my energy in things?  Again, check!

Just asking those few questions made me realize how much energy/power I routinely toss aside.  No wonder I am always exhausted!!!

If you are curious about your energy/power, ask yourself the above questions.  Then, as you move through your day be aware of the landmines that you have identified.  Little by little, as you stop tossing away your energy, you will find yourself filled up with more energy.  I personally am hoping that maybe, just maybe, at some point I will have saved up enough energy to routinely stay up later than my son!